(Trigger warning: miscarriage)
'There was nothing you could have done differently. One in three pregnancies end in miscarriage,' the doctor assured me. 'It's just not talked about enough...'
It was Father's Day night and my concern over 10-week pregnancy spotting had escalated to my worst nightmare. In the space of a day, our baby was gone.
There are no words to describe the pain and trauma, but blessings have unfolded nonetheless.
I was reminded in my spirit just tonight as I write this, barely 48 hours later, that the first thing our sweet baby saw was the face of Jesus.
She would never experience the pain of this world. Instead, she is already home waiting for us. She just got a head start into eternity.
I know there are times I can become so fixated on this life that I forget the bigger picture. This life is fleeting. It's temporary. We do not store up treasures here, it's pointless. Rather, we keep our gaze heavenward.
Grief may be a heavy burden to bear but no matter what happens, He is still good.
This was the only prayer I could manage as I left the hospital that night. 'You are still good... You are still good... You are still good.'
Grief is not an easy road. But neither should it be a lonely one.
I pray that if your heart is breaking right now alongside mine, with whatever you may be going through on your walk, that you too feel the Lord carrying you. I pray that the Lord would bless you and keep you, that He would make His face shine upon you and give you peace.
I pray that no matter how hard your situation is right now that even through tears you can tell Him, 'You are still good.'
Because believing anything less will give the enemy a foothold in our lives. And, frankly, after the pain he inflicts, he DOES NOT deserve it.
Jesus is still good. He is still Sovereign. So wherever you are at, whether you are grieving or struggling or barely getting by, I pray you will claim this truth -
God is still good.
'The Lord is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him...'
Elizabeth is a writer and the founder of Daughters of Love and Light. She has a Graduate Diploma in Creative Writing and has released a fantasy trilogy, two novellas (including The Battle for Harenburg Hill), a book of poetry, and most recently the standalone novel, The Watson Women (Elizabeth Calder, D.O.L.L. 2021). Elizabeth lives in South Australia with her husband and young son and is currently working on a novel set during the Reformation, a historical period she finds fascinating.